I’ve nothing better to do this afternoon coz I’ve already done all my might to land on a job. So, let’s take a break now…

What do you when you realise you are actually living only a normal life than you expected it to be?

When we ’suddenly’ realise we’re not a celebrity Barbie nor are we married to the world richest Kent. Yea… it’s like kaboom! The fantasy, shattered. Reality hits. Gravity works. Wrinkles start intruding. People start calling me “aunty“. A one year old scream brought us to a whole new exciting life but in an unexpected way.

When we’ve passed a quarter or maybe half of our life and life suddenly takes a U-turn. When we are not residing in any large fortified building… so called castle, with our name ‘encrypted’ in its Title Deed. Encrypted, coz it takes a multitude factors to decode cash into name Nor are we settling our footage lavishly in every island in the world.

When we’re not a self-made millionaire by 20 or 30 or even 40. We just know we’re somewhere… in space maybe. When our bank account… is lacking all the zeros coz we were too excited in getting ourselves a huge mortgage. Or perhaps we’ve done so much and so near yet so far? That is all to life? What do you do?

Start panicking? Start planning on top of all the plans? Start living? Start looking? Start regretting? Start laughing frantically? Start sticking your neck out? Start celebrating for that’s life? Start seeking help astrologically? Start applying for our stay in asylum?

Errr… I have no idea. Sometimes I tried singing. To go for World Peace, it’s better I don’t. LoL… So I try something quieter like… drawing. Taking each day as it comes. I started each drawing with a vision at the back of my mind, how I hope the drawing would look like. As I go along, new discoveries take me to new heights opening up many possibilities. Possibilities that inspired me to complete the entire drawing in a smooth sail. Possibilities that left me at a dot which would take me days or months to continue that piece.

Every stroke is how I envisioned it to be yet sometimes it may not necessarily be so. Sometimes we’re enthused with the possibilities, sometimes we went blank and we tried not to focus too much on unwanted detail and tried moving on with hopes of a breathtaking drawing. If we keep burying our head too much in the pasts and giving distraction no chance to drift us to a brand new start, we’ll lost our sanity and maybe ended up wasting an unfinished  drawing. Then my hubby would start singing to me like in the indian movies, rolling from the master bedroom balcony right to our apartment corridor, “Your drawing canvas costs me MYR123, the boxes of colors costs me MYR456… all together it’s 78910…”.

Psst… maybe professional artists do produce exactly what’s in their mind? I dunno. I also don’t do sports in my free time coz I’ve been walking like a duck for the past two days after just a half -hour brisk walk. Yet, I think I’ll do it again this weekend coz it always give me the energy much needed to survive the entire week!

By the time, we’re almost finished with the entire drawing, we tried to touch it up, step back, make ourselves a good cup of coffee and take it as it is. It’s art, it’s life. Anthony Robbin once tweet, frame every disaster and ask ourselves if it really matters in 5 years time? I think if you look close enough, all art has its flaws yet we call it art! It all depend on how we look at it. If we choose to take it as an art of life and we’ll admire the entire piece. If we choose to critic it as flaws, you’ll throw it away.

Now, where’s my son? My dear, are you sleeping??? From his room, “Yes”. Yikes :S

Lesson Learned: My hubby placed a bet that my art embarking attempt would not lasts more than 6months :/